When He is Gone...

Thinking about this and that Viki was walking around the house. Everything was so nice and neat, but was she happy in here, and can she let all memories good and bad just to live behind and to start all over?
It was the time to make a choice. When Ian was gone and she was about to leave Vegas, because she was simply tired to be between two states, and all this complications of having two homes. The mortgage company didn't want to work out to low the payments, but to be negative every month with a property rental didn't make sense any longer, because she founded herself as musician again, and wanted to invest her time and money in to her music.
It is strange, but the fact is - she started to write her first song dedicated to her love when he got badly sick with melanoma, and finished that composition the year later when he was gone from a physical world.
She had a long break from music since, she came to US,  and now she was back to something she always loved, because you believe or not, the spirit of her love was leading her to this. She saw him coming into her dreams and meeting people, and later on it was almost the same event was happened in a real life. She was trying to avoid contact to music, but all signs said, she should go back to were she belongs to.
This strange house in Vegas was bringing her back in to the past.

... Thinking, that her relationship with her lover is over after 7 years, Vikki stopped any communications with Ian. After New Years Eve of 2004  they spent together, things started to come together, their love was in the top, because she was getting divorce with her husband,  and Ian was kidding about their future marriage, and that Viki will divorce him next day, because will not be able to handle him.

Closer to 2005 things started to change quick in a strange direction.
It seemed that Ian begun to avoid dates, and he told Viki in one of the conversations on the phone, that he doesn't feel like to go out, and just want to stay home. Any women in the world will take it personally.

.... About the year went by and Viki and Ian met in Backstage Cafe for a Valentine's Day. She decided do not spent too much time with Ian, because everything it seemed to be over between them a time ago, and she had a meeting with a couple of her friends, which she didn't see for a long time.
They have been holding their arms, and didn't want to let it go like sometimes before. Ian offered a dinner, but Viki refused, and just had a couple of drinks instead. His eyes were sad and he said he will go home after she leave. He also said he doesn't feel good.
Ian wasn't the one who ever complained about how he feels or anything else and Viki just hold him and said to go home and relax. He was upset, and she could read it.
It was a difficult moment when it was the time for her to leave... He gave her a kiss in the lips, like always before, a warm hug, and as lovers say:
-I love you... She hold him tight and said - I love you too. Happy Valentine's day. He always was responsive, and a caring man and leaving him always was like taking a piece from the heart.

She left, but she knew, that she will come back for her forever love.

When He is Gone....

One week went by, and Viki left to Las Vegas. It wasn't much to do in there, just the house she owned needed to be care about. Tenants leaved, and she was in the middle of the road what to do with this property.
Los Angeles was calling her. A lot of good memories, good times, all the roads in Beverly Hills,which always brought her to one place - Backstage Cafe, and to someone she loved. Each street in Sherman Oaks was worth more then Las Vegas strip.
Internet was very slow in the house, but it still gave her possibility to read emails. There were a few emails from musicians, and one of them was from her new friends "Pajama Pants".
Email text from Mike seemed strange.The man, not knowing Viki very well, and met her only once, told her that he misses her. It sounded suspicious, and she didn't like it. She did believe in love in first sign, but never believed in words about love or feelings, saying too early. The first thought was - what this guy wants from me.
What ever it was...  She liked "Pajama pants" for some reason.
Seating on the stairs of empty house Viki knew, that she can't get both, Vegas and L.A., and need to make a choice... To live in a beautiful house, and always dreaming about L.A. or to live in L.A. and to forget about beautiful house, and to be happy in a small apartment.

Mike was writing every day, during the week she was in Vegas, and she was always writing back, and just telling all the truth about her thoughts about house situation, and in general. She wasn't afraid to share the information with this guy, it was kind of natural for her. She felt people.
Living in Vegas for about 3 years, and before that, visiting it for two years she understood, that if you survive in Vegas, you survive anywhere in the world. Vegas is tough of making a friendship, and Vegas doesn't accept people as easy as it seems, to call yourself local. Corruption - big time.

Her memories always came back to Ian's words when he said he doesn't like Vegas, and she should come back to L.A. What was about Vegas Ian didn't like she never got to know.
They were kidding about flying on Ian's small plane to Europe,which no way can make it to the point, but not Vegas...

Back to Samui/Part 2

After contacting all her friends, and going through her online school material she stayed late that night. Almost 48 hours without sleep made her over tired, but the second breath has opened and she still could be awake and to work on some stuff. She missed to work on music,but everything just was against to write or to record even one composition.

The ticket was purchased for a trip next day and the day after they went to Malaysia. The shuttle came almost to their house. Then the group was guided to the ship.
The ship was much smaller than the last time, and young tourists were seating almost on each other in a front, on the nose of the ship, because they wanted to get some sun and enjoy the breeze. Our artist and Alex squeezed themselves into group and seat down on the floor.
Following all this the Artist didn't see much of happiness on the young people faces. She didn't use to that... traveling a lot of places she recognized the atmosphere very easy. Just a few girls were flirting with guys, but mostly of people in the group were serious or sleepy.
She loved the small ship journey, it was very refreshing, and relaxing.
After two hours they arrived on the land,where they were guided to the big comfy bus.
It was a plan to sleep all the trip in the bus, because they didn't sleep enough, and 5 hours could be just perfect to get some rest.

Great movie started to play before a bus even started to move. Our Artist was watching an American movie, and she was so happy to hear good English, which took her home automatically.

The bus was driving about 35 miles in hour on the highway for about 10 min, and the Artists started to be concerned if the bus is in a good condition, and they do not stock in the middle of Jungles. There were some old houses on the way, but the nature still was kind of creepy and wild looking. Because of a lot of moisture in the air, it is a paradise for the trees,with the only but.... Nobody was ever cared about them, and they holds some danger. Even from the look at them you understand how small you're against the nature.

 TV screen in the bus by sudden went black, and was turned off in 35 min, but the bus was still moving.
What the heck? Buss stopped and a driver opened the front door.
Confused passengers started to look at each other. Some people just begun their waking up, and with a big question on their faces were waiting for what is next.

- Out! - it was a scream of some guy from the outside. But tourist continued seating on their places, and didn't move.
- Out - the voice repeated again the phrase, the only phrase in English, the guy probably knew.
The people started to get up from their seats, and the comments started to come - What the hell? In many languages as you can guess. With having a little bit imaginations, you could hope, that it was a break time or stop for tourist to get some breakfast in the Cafe with official sign of the Tour Company, who organized this trip, and not the bus breaking up.
Welcome to the "Rat Tail Cafe".  It was the only way you could call it, because it was stinky, and no way you want to taste or even smell their food. A few workers or owners were not friendly, and were watching people with some kind of hate.

There wasn't any explanation to the group of tourists, what is going on, or what is next.
The only question everybody had - Where are we, and why we are here?  Because their bus left.

Only one small bus-truck was lonely parked on the street and Artist with her brother were laughing that it is their privet transportation... in a while to their surprise... it was their next bus.

They still had 5 hours of trip to Malaysia... This traveling agency must be kidding.

Back to Samui/Part1

- We have to go to Malaysia tomorrow to get a stamp (viza) - Alex said.
She knew, that they need to go there, but she didn't know how she could take another unpleasant trip non stop without even one day in between.
- Alex please let's stay at least one day here - she asked her brother, and he agreed.
This race in Thailand was already too much for her, and unleashed problems with this or that , made her feel like she is walking on the edge. The soul wasn't relax and many times inside of her mind she was trying to find the answer - why all these things are happening.
It seems like they did mistake by mistake, though the only wish was to leave the country, but some evil force was just continue hitting her and her brother with a full power.

 She never liked Asia, and never wanted to go here, but what made her to do this stupid step and not listening to her intuition and the voice inside. Just good reviews of guys who probably enjoyed the companies of Thai girls,because they can buy a wife for a month for a very little money. The tourists resorts which looked great and had their own life inside, but what about outside? This island have a potential and maybe in 5 years when they will clean up all the island it can be a good place for vacations. The Police doesn't give you a ticket for driving drunk,but they can give you a ticket for driving without helmet and only if the driver doesn't have it, because the passenger is not considered as a human being. They have been laughing with her brother about it many times making jokes. A lot of foreigners were killed this way in drunk driving. Locals are driving since a very young age so they have a master degrees in that, but you never know. The sea, yes the water was very warm, and pleasant, but after California not much things could surprise. She missed US, and she missed the man she was in love with.

She felt like she doesn't have a spiritual guide anymore, and left all alone, in the hands of devil. Still trying to think positive and prepare herself mentally to the next trip she was trying to block her mind for the next days of ugly pictures and places she saw last time going to Malaysia. She decided that she is not gonna pay attention on surrounding, and only just to concentrate on what she has to do, so kind of close her eyes on what ever will be around.
- We gonna buy the trip from the traveling agency maybe it will be a bit better - Alex mentioned.
It sounds better to her, though she had some doubt ...
Though  Thailand has some loyal rules about overstay, and just wanted to rip money as a punishment you have to do things right and do not play with laws.